Saturday, December 05, 2009
the blog sorta died together with the relationship.
been afew months yet stil nostalgic.
are he thinking of me as i think of him too? a tinge of sadness, missing, and wondering how the other party is getting on?
in life, some scars cannot be erased. if we could start it all over again i would have done many things very differently. if we met later, things might work out. the feelings were right, but the timing was not.
these 4 months has been torturous, eventful, exciting..full of sooo many ups and downs..felt lost so many times. picked myself up, fell; laughed, cried; gave up, tried again.
in such a short span of time, i sprained my back 3 times. gave up marathon, grading and competition. cant exercise, ate as much..gained 7kg..stayed up real late..destroyed my skin and health..shopped too much..quite broke..found a direction to excel in sports, hopes dashed, trusted in friendships, only to be disappointed in some.
but despite it all, i have learnt many things, seen many points of views, matured in my own way.
i guess this is what you call 'growing up'.
i need to learn more. been overly sheltered.
status? single, unavailable.
cheers to the route of self discovery.
Jia you Mindy. =)
Just The Girl @
9:42 PM
Friday, September 11, 2009
Bittersweet memories that I want to treasure forever.
Flutters and heartaches that I feel even now that his scent is no longer near.
May I step out afresh without fear,
Yet, always keeping him so dear.
Just The Girl @
10:17 PM
Thursday, July 16, 2009
I am not feeling well..some bug going around in the shop..everyone's falling sick. sighs.
difficult to swallow rice etc..then added hot water to rice..and missed my grandpa alot. because i remember he was the one who taught me to do that when i was young and had no appetite. he said just add hot water and pretend you are drinking water and finish it. surprisingly it tasted delicious and i always did that when i couldnt finish my meal and grandma was on the verge of flaring up. would just pour in water..and gobble it down without chewing. lolz. it's been long. and i miss him. =(
stil sob whenever i think of grandpa but i guess i should channel energy into pampering grandma instead. i want to treasure those close to me..and love them unconditionally.
it sucks to be sick without being able to take mc. and no one to look after you, or cook for you. lucky got grandma to pamper me with her cooking else i will be malnourished.
appreciative. and blessed. =)
Just The Girl @
9:34 PM
Tuesday, July 07, 2009
was watching a show which played a girl's childhood pictures..she was at the beach, holding a drink etc..and she was always smiling.
then it reminded me..the only picture i ever smiled in when i was young was my baby picture. from age of 1-about 4 i never smiled anymore. only when i entered kindergarden did i smile again.
is that what they call 'subconscious mind'? that i was affected by my parents' divorce and the turmoil before that, without knowing it? when do kids start having memory? it seems that that part of my life was totally erased from my head. i cant really piece the things together, i cant really remember anything. the trigger point was a significant event that my mum thought enough was enough and all hell broke loose. what happened before that? how come i cant remember anything, or what i felt, and i never smiled?
is it really best to forget? do people really subconsciously forget unhappy past?thought that only happens in movies.
should i get back my memories, even though that might mean trauma?
Just The Girl @
11:39 AM
It was tiring to have 2 dinner and dances consecutively.
had great fun at pharmacy grad dinner. our table was hella noisy with my dear friends setting the atmosphere for the night. you girls rock man! after which we went to marriot hotel for a drink..shared cocktails, learnt afew new and interesting games and realised i cant coordinate for nuts. lolz. will cherish this group of non-judging friends for life!
second dnd was a mess. work was not delegated properly, tables overflowing, programme was not all that fun, and no dance! then the night ended early and EVERYONE went home. dots. what kind of dnd is that! i had expected to stay out laaaaaate. =(
perhaps the first dnd set too high a standard for the second. perhaps the first dnd's programme was not that great afterall. i think it was just the company..the 'dare to speak and shout as and when you like' girls we had on our table.
since when did ska's dnd become so foreign and boring? more than half the people there were strangers.
Just The Girl @
11:34 AM
Thursday, June 04, 2009
Repeat after me: Italy is boring boring boring..
yupz, just got back from 2 weeks of hols in italy. went to namely milan, venice, naples, and rome.
milan was a shopping paradise.venice was good makan place (we had our best spaghetti there) naples was a load of rubbish cuz we kept losing our way in the mountains, and they absolutely wasted their nice waters by not having snorkelling activities-you gotta rent your own boat and that costs 80 euros for an hour..rome was full of churches again..and the vatican.
so there you are..pizza, spaghettis, lotsa gelato and cuppacinos.
some interesting things i noticed about their lifestyle there
1) you can cheat the government by not paying for bus rides (for security reasons i'm not gonna mention how much i saved by doing that..lol)
2) their buses and trains hardly have the handles that drop down from the bar above. why? cuz majority of their people are tall enough to reach the bar anyway.
3) graffiti is their way of life. they have many michael fays roaming free there.
omg this entry was halfway done and left dangling for sooo long.
basically, you see 1 church, you've seen it all. the trevis fountain was nice, cuppacino so so, pizza depending on location, spaghetti..neh! except for that special one we had in venice. and we kept thinking it was at milan so we painstakingly walked so much before we finally realised we could have looked at the pictures to help us recall where it was..and hmm..you could have imagined how angry and disappointed we felt to find out that it was actually at venice, not milan. we had been looking forward to that plate of seafood spaghetti the entire trip!
the world is such an exciting place. i'm really quite convinced that its very much more exciting to be a cabin crew than a pupil pharmacist, though the latter is a respectable (but not as highly paid) profession. lolz. facts arent pretty, but to do some justice, its really a challenge to handle a pharmacy, and you learn hell lot of things. way to go. 6 day week, average of one to two 3 hour tutorials per week, plus 95 reports to do in 9 months. lets stock up on multivits. *poot*
Just The Girl @
2:30 PM
Tuesday, April 07, 2009
hmm having a dilemma whether to set up a blogshop online. competition is too tight. but i think its a good way to start my own petty business for interest.
thinking of setting up a shop to sell some handcrafts and jewellery, products like laneige, skin food, and exclusive key chains etc from other countries (like hello kitty from japan). any opinions from my readers?
Just The Girl @
10:48 PM
Tuesday, March 31, 2009
What can make you give up your baby pillows which you have been hanging on for the last 20 yrs, with all your tears, sweat etc.
a cockroach.
even my hubby cant make me give it up, but a cockroach did. felt something crawling and woke in shock. then refused to sleep for the next 2 hours and still apprehensive when approaching the bed 2 hours later. and i saw it there AGAIN. gosh this is the most disgusting thing ever. and that stupid idiot crawled all over my stuff toys (my babies) now i gotta send all for dry washing which some cant because they have some cute sound system inside. i killed it, but somehow am stil not satisfied at its fate. i'm just letting it off too lightly for the traumas it has caused me and my babies.
gosh. i cant imagine sleeping without the smell of my baby pillows but i think sentiments will end here. this is like the ultimatum.
hai i am so grieved now to part with my beloved pillows but there is no other way i think. haiz..20 yrs of relationship down the drain.
i can never find a commercial pillow of that suitable height to fit my neck and my pillows will never smell the same or carry the thoughts of my grandma who made them anymore. gosh i am so sad now i feel like crying.
=(
time for a bath.
Just The Girl @
5:08 AM
