Thursday, July 28, 2005
Woohoo. I'm in hostel now. Kinda enjoy staying alone. Only one thing i can't get used to. Having to lock my door so often, even when going to the toilet. hehe.
This Sunday's Pesta Sukan. NUS will be sending a team down also. For me, the 10 days notice seems a lil too short. sometimes i get so tired that i can't even do a low cat-stance. not that my stances are very good but everytime i wanna remind myself to bend lower, my body can't follow instructions cuz the muscles are just so sore. Ok lar, at least there's no shivering of hands. but almost i guess, i can feel it in my nerves.
One other problem i encounter is my gastric. People here are mad. they eat dinner at 6++ then can last till about midnight. breaking my routine of eating every two hours. thus my gastric prolems are back. yes yes, don't have to remind me i'm a pig.
Another problem. Late nights. man, i've dark rings now. sighz... Maybe hall pple participate in activities to get tanned to hide the darkrings? =x ok. ignore that. it was rubbish, cuz i'm not thinking straight now. lack of sleep.
*yawnz*
I'm a piggy, pple. zzz.
Just The Girl @
1:59 PM
Tuesday, July 12, 2005
I don't understand typical men.
I was sleeping on grandma's bed when i heard her scream. Grandpa was "secretly" calling that woman. Grandma was mad. So was he. She was furious that after doing so much, he still wants to call her and yearn to see her. He was pissed because she was controlling him too much. Apparently they are "just friends". Apparently. If you ask me i doubt it's that simple.
I feel ashamed. both for him and her. both are married. still lawfully married. both have kids. why do couples stray? can't they just confide in their partners? where is their commitment. pastures are always greener at the other side. But don't forget after you cross over, where you're standing now will be "the other side".
I don't see what's wrong with grandma. she has a good heart. maybe slightly authoritative but i can see her good intentions. she gives the best to others. i think she's just using anger to cover up her hurt. take for instance she insisted i just left the plates there. i really would have helped her wash that pile if my hand wasn't wrapped up.
She's a good wife. raising and disciplining the kids, doing all the housework, cooking, marketing. only thing. she's not romantic. some people are just like that isn't it? i'm worried for her. she seemed to be mumbling to herself after the quarrel. i wish i weren't there. now i dunno whether to keep it to myself or what.
please people. do not touch married people. ok i revise that. do not touch attached/married people. and attached/married ones, please don't step on two boats with your tiny feet. you'll end up falling into the water when one moves apart. it just takes one to move apart. and trust me. nowadays no two boats will move in the same direction in this kind of situation.
When a woman strays, everyone points fingers at her. when a man strays, it's "in his nature". What rubbish.
I repeat. I don't understand men. I revise that. I don't understand typical men.
But I believe some are not typical. Thank God.
Just The Girl @
7:49 PM
Sunday, July 10, 2005
It's been 3 days since my dear entered the army. though we usually don't spend much time together during weekends, this time it's different. and yes dear, you are missed. haha-he deposited grandpa bear with me. no worries...it's safe with piglet. i found a way to hug both of them together.hehe.
anyway, i got into temasek hall. first choice. after a long time. can't wait to start campus life. i miss studying. i miss school life.
My schedules are pretty empty nowadays. miss those days where we go around singapore to eat all the recommended food. miss the days we watched each other play maple story at his house. miss the days we cook together and realise that we've much room for improvement. miss the movie outings(usually monday). miss training karate together. miss watching vcds together. miss ruffling his hair. miss saying "heylo darling" for no reason. miss him replying "hallo my dear". miss the small quarrels. miss saying "shuddup" to each other for fun. miss the long walks we take. miss the long bus rides where we will doze off. miss those days when we just sit and recall memories. miss punching each other for fun...........
Short time with many memories. and a longer time from here, with endless memories to come.
Be safe darling. missing you.
Just The Girl @
8:21 PM
Tuesday, July 05, 2005
Whoa.It's probably been 6 years since i last changed diapers and cleared poo for a baby. That was exactly what i did in the past two days. Yes, i babysat my 5month old cousin-Hunter. Cool name eh?
A test of patience. not much connection on the first day. I don't exactly have exaggerated facial expressions so i guess i'm not good at making babies laugh?
So that was it. The first day was boring, not really rewarding in a sense. Luckily dy visited and brought lunch over. After that we sat down to watch vcds that he brought along. but there wasn't much conversation. Probably due to the awkwardness or boredom that he left shortly after? *shrugz* Thanks anyway. It was nice of you to make the effort. =)
Second day was better. Hunter boy began to warm up to me. A smile from me could make him smile too! Though he's a difficult baby to handle, his smile in reply makes it worthwhile. oh and did i mention? after his feed we just laid there like two lazy pigs. his head lying on my tummy. soon after he began poo-ing with all his might. and after that he was so exhausted he just refused to move. Funny sight.
But i'm quite sad that it's three more days to my dear's enlistment. and i didn't spend much time with him in the past two days. Well, i shall just treasure the remaining time we have.
Read this from totto-chan, a true story of Tetsuko Kuroyanagi, during my stay at uncle's. here's something to reflect on.
"Having eyes, but not seeing beauty; having ears, but not hearing music; having minds, but not perceiving truth; having hearts that are never moved and therefore never set on fire."
These are the things to fear.
Just The Girl @
11:27 PM
Friday, July 01, 2005
ok. a whole series of events next week.
Monday, Tuesday-babysitting Hunter (my baby cousin)
Wed-War of the Worlds
Thurs-Leonard's bday
Friday- my Dear's enlistment, zhiyuan's bday
Saturday-Soccer competition
Oh well, i gotta get geared up. sorta been neglecting karate and i feel bad. more like i miss it like mad. but sometimes running training or soccer leaves me dead beat.
Shall concentrate on swimming running and karate.. after maymay returns me my beloved bright red swim suit.
My dear's well le! yipee..not dengue! hope he'll be healthy throughout NS.....*grinz*
His NS and my uni will determine if we make it or break it. I have confidence, and i hope it is so on his side too.
Apparently, Que Sara Sara is a rubbish song.
"Whatever will be will be?"
No.
Whatever you want it to be, make it be.
Just The Girl @
10:08 PM
