Wednesday, November 16, 2011
Life is a learning journey. Today I discovered several things about myself.
People make the same mistakes again and again. It may come as different forms but they all stem from a core issue (i wouldnt say its a prob cuz it's just how you view it)
When you realise history repeating itself, esp if you dont like it, it's time to review why.
I personally used the enneagram to analyse myself today. I planned for an activity lovingly, but things didnt turn out as i planned. then i started to think (i mean, overthink), and then i started to play the 'not fair' game...feeling like i'm the only idiot who set aside time and effort. But the truth is, when someone doesnt speak it, doesnt mean he doesnt think it or plan it. From my relaxed enneagram number 2 (loving), i went into my stressed self number 5 (thinker), then back to my normal self number 8 (challenger)-thats when i feel things are unfair, and started trying to challenge and bring 'justice' to the situation.
Also found out that i'm a vedic moon in virgo recently. Such pple are anal and have high standards of self and others. but who is to judge what is the standard? as a famous saying goes, just cuz you dont get what you want, doesnt mean that your loved ones love you any less. maybe it's time i take a breather, and a step back..to realise that one may be giving 100%, though it may not be what i expect.
I have concluded that a pure heart with a genuinely good intention, giving a 100% percent is almost enough. Topped with icing of wanting continuous self improvement, and one's own fighting spirit.
Just The Girl @
9:19 PM
