Thursday, July 16, 2009
I am not feeling well..some bug going around in the shop..everyone's falling sick. sighs.
difficult to swallow rice etc..then added hot water to rice..and missed my grandpa alot. because i remember he was the one who taught me to do that when i was young and had no appetite. he said just add hot water and pretend you are drinking water and finish it. surprisingly it tasted delicious and i always did that when i couldnt finish my meal and grandma was on the verge of flaring up. would just pour in water..and gobble it down without chewing. lolz. it's been long. and i miss him. =(
stil sob whenever i think of grandpa but i guess i should channel energy into pampering grandma instead. i want to treasure those close to me..and love them unconditionally.
it sucks to be sick without being able to take mc. and no one to look after you, or cook for you. lucky got grandma to pamper me with her cooking else i will be malnourished.
appreciative. and blessed. =)
Just The Girl @
9:34 PM
Tuesday, July 07, 2009
was watching a show which played a girl's childhood pictures..she was at the beach, holding a drink etc..and she was always smiling.
then it reminded me..the only picture i ever smiled in when i was young was my baby picture. from age of 1-about 4 i never smiled anymore. only when i entered kindergarden did i smile again.
is that what they call 'subconscious mind'? that i was affected by my parents' divorce and the turmoil before that, without knowing it? when do kids start having memory? it seems that that part of my life was totally erased from my head. i cant really piece the things together, i cant really remember anything. the trigger point was a significant event that my mum thought enough was enough and all hell broke loose. what happened before that? how come i cant remember anything, or what i felt, and i never smiled?
is it really best to forget? do people really subconsciously forget unhappy past?thought that only happens in movies.
should i get back my memories, even though that might mean trauma?
Just The Girl @
11:39 AM
It was tiring to have 2 dinner and dances consecutively.
had great fun at pharmacy grad dinner. our table was hella noisy with my dear friends setting the atmosphere for the night. you girls rock man! after which we went to marriot hotel for a drink..shared cocktails, learnt afew new and interesting games and realised i cant coordinate for nuts. lolz. will cherish this group of non-judging friends for life!
second dnd was a mess. work was not delegated properly, tables overflowing, programme was not all that fun, and no dance! then the night ended early and EVERYONE went home. dots. what kind of dnd is that! i had expected to stay out laaaaaate. =(
perhaps the first dnd set too high a standard for the second. perhaps the first dnd's programme was not that great afterall. i think it was just the company..the 'dare to speak and shout as and when you like' girls we had on our table.
since when did ska's dnd become so foreign and boring? more than half the people there were strangers.
Just The Girl @
11:34 AM
