Wednesday, December 22, 2010
Spent 2.5 hours talking to an insurance trainer yesterday..almost convinced to join the business, to earn for my uni fees.. but just gonna state two big reasons why I decided not to, in the end.
1) 40 compulsory hours to be clocked at my current full time job, plus another 30 hours to be clocked at the insurance company is a killer. Its not that i'm unwilling to work long hours. i'm a certified workaholic, but having been thru the workaholic phase, i know i need my sports and sleep to be happy, and fufilled.
2) still not really 100% comfortable with the concept of the large cut of commission i will get as an insurance. Also, even if i do well and earn enough for the year, the agent whom i pass my portfolios to, will be the one subsequently benefiting for the rest of the years that the contract is on.
So, yes, as much as i really want to study overseas and need the cash badly, i still decided against it. for my own mental and physical health, and my conscience. Choose to refute it if you wish. but that's how i think for now, and i'm a taurus.
one full day of research on universities today and i came to a big conclusion. frustrated that all the criminal psychology courses are either too expensive (because they are all in the states, or UK and they literally 'slaughter' foreigners with the high tuition fees), or they are not where i want to resident. also, in the US, where all pharmacists are all high and mighty with a pharmD, there is no way i can make use of my degree to get licenced there and earn for my next degree.
Even in Canada, where I am aiming to resident, the fees are exorbitant for foreigners. the only solution i can think of, is to do my masters in pharmacy in a low-cost quiet university there, preferably under partial scholarship, while getting my pharmacy licence, then get my residency, take on a career as a pharmacist there while studying my true passion: criminal psychology.
Been aiming at this course since i was 16..but 8 years later, I am a pharmacist still yearning for the course. The road is long and winding, with many many things, and maybe even relationships i give up along the way..but my love for studying and staying overseas..is too great for me to give up. I honestly wish there could just be some kindhearted soul who will sponsor. in my dreams maybe? haha.
Money is not everything, but it's important. but so are other things in life. Hence, i believe that although i will be taking a really long winding, and maybe lonely road, that i will see many things and experience many things many do not have the chance to see.
cheers to the marathon to come.
Life is a journey. A long one indeed. =)
Just The Girl @
9:40 PM
Wednesday, December 15, 2010
'I didn’t fail that day because I had already
reconciled myself to failure, and I didn’t
suffer because I had decided that I had
already suffered enough.'
Read this from an athlete's account. Thought it was intriguing.
Acceptance is the key to living.
You would only have had a bad day if you said it was one. And not expecting too much of your day will make a bad day seemingly not so bad; and a good day, great.
Just The Girl @
5:33 PM
Was reading through my old blogs. Realised there are missing bits of my life that i forgot to update. One important milestone was a nightmare past revisited. and a chapter closed.
Met my blood brother, found out how he was doing, mutually agreed to not keep in contact, and am surprised at how easily i could let go of the past when it had always been bothering me, nagging at some corner of my heart.
Many a time, we try to avoid conflict, to avoid facing the music. But we realise that when we finally do, we created a mountain out of a molehill in the past, and we laugh at ourselves.
It was an impulse and a by-chance situation that I confronted my past. But i never once regretted it. Sometimes, i realise, people are simply looking for an official closure. No reasons, no explanations needed. Just to know what's going on, set a verdict and close the case, move on for good.
Have you any past which haunts you? Close it, before it closes in on you.
Just The Girl @
8:41 AM
Are you prepared for the exam?
Are you prepared for the race?
Are you prepared for the competition?
How many times have we, or do we hear this throughout our lives? Yet how many times do we confidently say 'yessss, we are prepared'?
Truth be told, we are never fully prepared. We can never be. Life is unexpected, and even so you think you are fully prepared, something, somewhere will pop up in the last minute and walaaa you are caught offguard. So what's my point?
Because we can never fully be prepared for something, the skill of thinking on the spot, and spontaneity is not a gift, but a crucial skill for survival.
More spontaneous and quick-minded people succeed, compared to those who spend sooo much time preparing. Dont blame them, or be envious. they probably spent time preparing the skill of quick-wit, or spontaneity compared to preparing materials. Of course, it would be good to have the best of both worlds, but many a time we can't, and hence need to prioritize.
Marathoners are given a tag to write encouragement words for the back of your shirt. next year, mine will be 'didn't train? so didn't 80% of us. JUST RUN, DAMN IT!'
Just The Girl @
8:13 AM
