Thursday, February 26, 2009
Sighs this proves to be a sucky sucky year to graduate. jobs are sparse and hard to find. really gotta work in macs?
my kicks are bloody slow now..think i'm losing it. but i will catch up again somehow, even if i leave competitive karate.
went for guardian interview today. portrayed a more commercial side of me which is interested in operations and got the offer. quite surprised that i could answer those clinical questions without much thinking. but lady luck was shining on me i guess. thank God.
its been long since i publicly set my goals and visions. i think its good to do that, because when you do, there is pressure to fufil it, and you will most likely do so. also, you will get constant reminders from friends who have read your blog. and they wont ask the same old silly questions like 'how are you' 'what have you been up to'...if they do you can just reply 'hey look at my blog!'
ha i'm getting crappy. but honestly at this juncture i think its very difficult to state my goals. i have never been so unplanned before. from not wanting to do prereg, to maybe i should do prereg to placate mum's effort, from enough studying to explore studying overseas, from want to join sia to no hope le. (cuz sia not recruiting and i got a scar on my lower arm from karate. a girl scratched me during training)
everything is so so uncertain. but i guess when the boat reaches the bridge (pls translate), everything will be straight. it will all work out. i have been lucky so far, quoting what shannon said. have been lucky to be healthy, to have opportunities to study, just simply to be still living.
its just the start of the yr and i'm so stressed already. thanks darling for being there when i need you, especially with all the undue pressure from mum and no one understanding why i dont want to do prereg, and no one supporting my decisions. you know sometimes you know that what you want to do is a silly idea, and you know you shouldnt, but the simple and rash side of you just wants to, and you want someone to support you though you already know from the start that its not the wisest choice?
pple always say keep your options open. things like working as a cosmetic counter girl, or even as a waitress is keeping my options open isnt it? why be so realistic, where did all the child-likeness go to? have adults completely lost them? does that mean once you reach adulthood you should forget what it feels like to daydream, discuss about impossibilities, and simply think of just doing the impossible or unaccepted?
remember how we were young we din like to brush teeth? remember how we acted out power rangers in pri sch? remember imagining you are the doctor to your soft toys? remember giving names to stuff toys and talking to them?
i think everyone deserves to retain their childlikeness even when they grow old.
lets embrace that side of us. the world is complicated and serious enough it wouldnt hurt to be short of an adult mind for afew hours.
Just The Girl @
10:35 PM
