Tuesday, July 07, 2009
was watching a show which played a girl's childhood pictures..she was at the beach, holding a drink etc..and she was always smiling.
then it reminded me..the only picture i ever smiled in when i was young was my baby picture. from age of 1-about 4 i never smiled anymore. only when i entered kindergarden did i smile again.
is that what they call 'subconscious mind'? that i was affected by my parents' divorce and the turmoil before that, without knowing it? when do kids start having memory? it seems that that part of my life was totally erased from my head. i cant really piece the things together, i cant really remember anything. the trigger point was a significant event that my mum thought enough was enough and all hell broke loose. what happened before that? how come i cant remember anything, or what i felt, and i never smiled?
is it really best to forget? do people really subconsciously forget unhappy past?thought that only happens in movies.
should i get back my memories, even though that might mean trauma?
Just The Girl @
11:39 AM
